RIP Oscar de la Renta

Today , 21/10/14 is a sad day in the fashion world , Oscar de la Renta has passed away . I'm still in shock.When someone in the fashion industry dies I honestly don't believe it.I really thought he was going to be one of those people that just lived forever. Its going to be seriously weird no seeing his designs anymore and having someone else taking over the line ( if it happens). He was one of my favourite designers , and forever will be . He was one of the few designers that I get excited about and really anticipate seeing his designs during NYFW. A tragic lost to the fashion world

RIP Oscar de la Renta

UPDATE : Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus

I don't think I'll ever understand guys , there so confusing . One minuet they want to talk to you , the next they don't and then they get mad because they have stopped talking to you even though they were ignoring you in the first place. Ughhh . Or they will only talk to you when there drunk . I dont know if im being naive but i also fall for it because i always think people are gonna change . Im starting to think that all guys are idiots , they cause so much drama . Definitely just going to stick with the hockey girls on nights out because it's so much less stressful to hang out with the girl than go get involve in messy boy drama , ive had enough of that over the past year.  

One thing I've learnt in the past year is that there not really worth it . Honestly take it from me , there not worth falling out with friends over or losing friends  for . I've made some horrible mistakes with my friends over guys that I wish that never happened . I know it sounds really cheesy but your friends will always be there for you no matter what , guys will just come and go . When things go wrong with guys you will always need your friends there. I've learnt this the hard way. Just don't abandon your friends , friendship should always come before relationships . I've missed out on so many things just because of a boy , looking back on everything I regret so much . I let both my friendship suffer and my work suffer to and was it really worth it in the end ? No Not really . Then why do I still care about someone who doesn't care about me ? On the other hand why should i care about him. I'm will be stupid if I let a boy effect my degree. Is he really worth scarifying a 1st for . I honestly don't know anymore . I'm so torn . Help ? 

Any excuse for a LC gif 

The British Tag

I have been loving The British Tag' that has been going round YouTube recently and I had to do it on my blog. 

1. How many cups of tea do you have a day? How many sugars? I only have one a day and that's on a good day . I don't really like drinking too much tea . That sounds really Un -British of me. When I do have one I nearly have 1 1/2 sugars.

2. Favourite part of your roast . Definitely the roast potatoes and gravy.My mum makes the BEST roast potatoes . Always miss a good roast when I'm at uni , I don't even try attempt it here because I'm useless at cooking. Roast dinner just make you feel all warm and cosy especially during the winter when its cold.Could really do with a roast right now.

3. Favourite dunking biscuit. Has to be chocolate digestives. Everyone knows why. Enough said. 

4. Favourite quintessentially British pastime? Watching the Wimbledon final  with strawberries and cream and an ice cold cider.Also summer BBQ's in the rain .

5. Favourite word? I say 'Mardy'  a lot . I think it's a midlands thing because I always get asked what it means( it means grumpy by the way) . I also say trampy  (acting like a tramp) a lot . I don't think it's a real word and I've probably just made up. 

6. Cockney rhyme slang?  No . I have no idea . Next question .

7. Favourite sweet/ chocolate I love Rhubarb and Custards .They remind me of my grandma and being at her house. Oh Fruit Salads and Black Jacks to.

8. What would your pub be called? The Ivy Rose . That sound like a pub right ? It will be covered in ivy and roses , hence the name , and it will have a cute little beer garden with a play area for children .

9. No.1 British person. The Queen ! Basically the whole royal family. Also Mary Berry.

10. Favourite shop / restaurant? I literally shop everywhere but I really love New Look and Topshop they basically make  up half my wardrobe .They have cute little vintage shops to in Lincoln which I like to look in .I also love Next to ( not just because I worked there ) . I love all their home stuff. 

11. What British song pops into your head?  Has to be Spice Girls Wannabe . The song of my childhood.

12. Marmite? I've never had it but I'm pretty sure I would hate it.

50 Random Facts Tag

Basically this tag is going around YouTube and thought it would be a good idea to do it on my blog so you can all get to know me :)

1. My older sister chose my middle name and I hate it (Its Jane by the way)

2. I have 1 older brother and 2 sisters. One is older than me and the other is my twin sister.

3.I am the older twin by two minutes.
4.I am kind of shy but I like going out and meeting new people .
5.I hate being on my own . I can't be on my own for more than an hour , I always have to be around people .
6.I over think things way too much, which is why I can't be on my own for too long.
7. I'm pretty much obsessed with sock and pyjamas. Every time I go shopping I have to buy new socks and pyjamas. 
8. I have a love /hate relationship with horror films. I'm always in the mood for a horror film but hate having to sleep after. I sleep with the light on after watching a horror film.
9. I am single.
10. I have four piercings (Ear lobes, Ear Cartilage, Belly Button and Nose) 
11. I have one tattoo (flying birds on the bra line). I'm planning to get a second one done at Christmas.
12. I always get angry at my mum for not putting me in dance class when i was younger .I wish I could dance. 
13. I'm the clumsiest person I know. 
14. I broke my nose once on a night. It’s not a good story. I basically passed out while being sick over a toilet and slammed my face on the seat and floor ( it’s my favourite story to tell new people because I say I got into a fight) 
15. I got a black eye at work. Again it’s not a good story (told you I'm really clumsy)
16. I'm either really early for stuff or really late, there's no in-between.
17. I can’t start any of my uni work unless my room is super clean.
18. I worry a lot. 
19. When I don't play hockey I get really stressed out.  
20. I hate losing contact with people 
21. I will listen to a song I really like on repeat until I don't like it anymore 
22. I'm easily distracted
23. I drink way too much Coca-Cola. It’s pretty much an addiction which I blame my media teacher because she would always bring it in for us every lesson.
24.I study Advertising and Marketing at university but wish i chose something different like Law, Criminology or Forensic Science.
25. I love crime documentary which is a little weird. 
26. I'm easily distracted.
27. When I was younger I wanted to be model after watching Americas Next Top Model, and then realized I had to be realistic that it was never going to happen.
28. I was going to be in film when I was a baby but I didn't have the right hair colour for the part.
29. I have a fear of flying 
30. I want to go travel after university (Hard when you have a fear of flying) 
31. I've been told that I’m too nice, which I don’t know if that’s a compliment or insult.
32. I tend to get on better with boys than I do with girls. 
33. I don’t think before I speak.
34. I'm always changing my hair colour.
35. Up until recently I had never used a washing machine.
36. I am 20 years old 
37. I'm terrible at cooking.
38. I pretty much hate the smell of coconut after a bad experience with Malibu (see 14.)
39. I love winter but I hate being cold.

40. I love Disney films.

41. The Lion King and The Little Mermaid are my favourite Disney films. 

42. I still haven’t learned to drive.

43. My last job was working in retail.  

44. When I feel comfortable around you, you will probably think I am a complete weirdo. 

45. I take too many selfies 
46. As much as I really dislike the Kardashians I love watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians.
47. I pretty much live in my pyjamas. Unless I’m going out somewhere i change into them as soon as I get back from uni. 
48. I've started getting into the habit of bringing random stuff home from nights out, practically people's glasses.
49. I still suck my thumb. Don't judge me.

50. I've never had a pet .

Monthly Favourites

Every month I'll be reviewing and blogging about some beauty products, clothing and other random stuff that I've really liked that month. 

The first product that I really love is the Rimmel Lodnon Scandeleyes Mascara in Extreme Black. I’m literally obsessed with mascara , I can never use a whole tube before buying a new one. I'm always buying mascara . I first used this back in my first year of uni and fell in love with it ever since. I've recently re-purchased this before going back to uni because I knew it would be reliable during freshers week . It definitely gives my lashes a more  volumized look and leaves them clump free.

Collection Luscious Lashes Natural is another beauty product that I'm loving at the moment. I don't normally wear fake eyelashes on nights because I never thought they suited me , but I picked these up spontaneously because they were on offer at the time. They're really affordable at £2.99 which is really good considering I don't wear fake eyelashes and trying them out. I would really recommend these for first time users or for people on a budget because they are really good quality and easy to apply(If I can  apply them anyone can do it ).The only issue is that you do have to apply quite a bit of glue for them to firmly stick ,especially in the corners. But they are re-usable , although I have had to re-purchase them a few times because I'm forever losing them on nights out (my fault not the products) 

One of my favourite hair care products ever is Batiste Dry Shampoo , so when I heard that they have a dry conditioner I had to try it out. I don't know why but I find the concept of dry conditioner a little weird but I guess it's pretty much like a leave in conditioner. Just like their dry shampoo it smells really nice but a little artificial. It did leave my hair really smooth and shinny though .Because I have dark hair I was worried that it would leave  white 'dust' in my hair but it didn't which is a bonus. 

I'm really lazy when it comes to my skin care routine. Its really bad to admit that but I never find the time to do everything and being back at uni my skin care routine is just one more thing I need to remember to do.Also I dont like the thought of using too many products on my face , so Nivea Daily Essentials 2 in 1 Cleanser and Toner is perfect. Being a 2 in 1 product means I'm using less products on my face and I'm cutting down time on my skincare routine, which means I have more time for to get on with my uni work( suppose to be anyway). I think having a good toner and cleanser is really important especially if your skin isn't in a great condition . This product makes your skin look and feel really fresh and soft . I pretty much use it both in the morning and at night and it lasts for ages as well because you only need to apply a small amount of it . I really like the smell of it too. It smells a bit of sun cream which is weird but it always reminds me of summer. 

I'm loving the fact that it is Autumn because I finally wear my White Faux Fur Headband from New Look which I bought this  back in mid September. I saw it in store and bought it because I was scared by the time Autumn came around it wouldn't be in store anymore. I was really excited to wear it the other day because it was finally cold enough to wear it . The only problem was that it was raining outside and I didn't want to get it wet so I just wore it around the house. Its so soft , I love it . Definitely going to be wearing all winter.

The first non fashion / beauty item on the list is the TV series Fresh meat. I discovered this when I got Netflix when I got back to uni. I must of watched 2 series in about a day, It's a seriously good handover cure . I love everything with Jack Whitehall in , he never fails to make me laugh.So happy when they put series three up but I'm feel lost now that I've watched all of them now.

The second non fashion / beauty item that I've been loving this month is Ariana Grande's new album (My Everything). I didn't know what to expect from this album and it didn't disappoint , its probably my favourite album that I've listened to in a long time. I pretty much love every song  . Its constantly on repeat when I'm doing my uni work . She has definitely ditched the Nickelodeon/Disney image that she had in her previous album for a more grown up and honest image. Highlights on the album:  One Last Time , My Everything, We Try , Just a Little Bit of Your Heart ,Problem & Break Free. 

Disclaimer : all views our my own opinions 

Purple Hair Dont Care .... kind of

As you can see from the previous post I decided that I was going to dye my hair purple. I was a little apprehensive as I’ve only ever dyed my own hair with a foam dye before. I normally get my mum or hairdresser to dye it for me because I cannot be trusted with something that’s important to me. Yes my hair is important to me.So it was my first time dying my own hair with a proper dye. I used the Colour Vibrance from Superdrug in Very Violet (2 for £6.00) and I wanted to test it out before buying an expensive one. I’m always a bit nervous dying my hair a different colour in case i hate it , but at the end of the day it can be washed out and if went drastically wrong I could just say I was dying it for Halloween.

I wasn’t going to originally buy with dye. I was going to buy Garnier Olia Permanent Hair Colour in Deep Violet but the reviews weren’t promising.  The dye was easy to apply, although I did make a mess when washing it out. I washed it out with lukewarm water because I’ve heard using hot water damages the scalp and affects the colour . I’m happy with the results but the colour depends of the light.

In some lights the purple is clearly visible and in other lights it looks like a black cherry colour which I actually really like. This result is probably due to the fact that I still had a red colour left in from my pervious dye. I would recommend it to anyone with blonde and light brown hair as I think the colour will be more visible. I probably won’t re-use this particular dye again but go for the same colour in a different brand once the entire colour from my hair has faded completely though.

Mental Health Awareness Day ( Very personal post)

Yesterday was Mental Health Awareness Day and it’s a very close subject to me. Mental Illness runs in my family .I found out a couple of years ago that my aunt suffered from schizophrenia and it was only until last year that mental illness effected another family member who I’m extremely close to , my twin sister . In a couple of days it would be almost a year since she had the official diagnoses of being servarly anorexic. Since then it’s been the toughest year of my life. Although it’s nearly a year since her official diagnoses, she recently told me that she has been suffering with the illness since she was 15 (nearly 6 years). It’s hard to think that I didn’t know this. I should know this I’m her twin sister she tells me everything right? At the time she kept it well hidden. Looking back now I can see the warning signs. It’s hard to think looking back to when she was younger this would happen to her now. But this is the thing with mental illness it can happen to anyone at any time and at any point in their life. It’s really hard to explain to someone the daily struggle that the person with the illness goes through and how servarly it effects everyone around them. It’s even harder when the person suffering is your twin sister. The bond between twins is fascinating and unique; it’s different than the bond between other siblings. It’s really hard to explain it if you’re not a twin. Being the older twin I’ve always been protected of her and seeing her change. Not only physically but mentally into a different person has been difficult. At the time of her diagnosis I was a month into my second year at uni. I remember the endless skype sessions and calls trying to calm her down when she hit rock bottom .People have so many misconceptions of anorexia. It’s not a weight disorder it’s a mental disorder. Not only is she diagnosed with anorexia but she also suffers from anxiety and depression. At the time watching my sister slowly kill herself and not being able to do anything to help was so agonising and painful. The thought of her going to bed and not waking up the next was constantly in the back of my mind. I felt so guilty that I was going on nights out and she was stuck in her room at uni or in hospital alone and suffering. I think seeing her in hospital was the worst thing for me because that’s when I knew that the illness had fully taken control of her. I remember visiting her at oxford where she was getting treatment and trying not to cry when I saw her. 

I get so angry when I read comments telling anorexics to "just eat" or advising parents to force feed someone suffering with anorexia. Like I said before it’s a mental illness not a weight disorder. If it was that simple then Anorexia wouldn’t have the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder.  It scary to think that my sister could be in the 20% that will die prematurely from of the illness.  I’m so proud to call her my sister though , She the bravest and strongest person I know and I know she can beat this xxxxx 

P.S I did get Becca's permission to post this and all stats are from be-at.co.uk